The problem with starting something that you’ve done in the past is knowing, or at least being convinced you know, all the tricks. Is it that impossible for me to just surrender myself to the program? I spend more time dividing out weekly points, and managing zero point foods around chocolate covered pretzels that could be used just eating right and/or exercising.

Everyone wants quick results. I’m not thin and done after 15 pounds. I’m not massively obese where the first 100lbs is just going to melt off. I’m dead in the middle. I’ve got a solid 50lbs to lose, and I’d like to lose 80lbs. If I lost 50lbs, would that be enough for me to finally be strong enough to say NO to the late night binging? Say NO to the cool ranch doritos and mint chocolate chip ice cream? The weight is going to come off so slowly, saying no is the only way to get there so it’s gotta work!

I really hope this program is designed to tell people like me to shove it. Go ahead and eat potatoes all day and then 19pts worth of chocolate. See how long that lasts. Really though, If I piddle 3pts of exercise each day and use all my weekly points, I can have 28pts a day vs 19. That’s my scheme. It’s crazy that potatoes and pasta are 0 points. I’m not sure I’m going to lose anything next week between those and my terrible start.

We always panic at the last minute right? I’ve got 2 annual visits and I’m 30lbs heavier than the last time either one saw me. I can’t drop 30lbs in 2 weeks can I? No, that’s absurd. What I could be however is a hell of a lot closer if I had done this the right way from the start. Either way, that’s my motivation for the next 12 days, messed up or not.

-Peace